Most every day I feel like I’m just dipping my toes in the water. Testing how my day feels as each minute passes. Some days with little interruption of events or my thoughts I’m comfortable, not hot, not cold but more times than not I am feeling the heat of my sons addiction and the coldness of my life due to it.

If I could test the waters each day and be prepared for anything that may pull me under I could sustain and calm my soul before any waves of emotion flood over me. I could just let God walk me through the swell and lead me through all that pushes me back or Holds me under maybe I could stop my son from drowning.

If I could test the waters each day and prepare for each wave as it hits I could stop putting my wall up and my mask on so I can continue my day. Not letting on to the thoughts and emotions circling in my head. Or chaos going on in my life until I explode over some unrelated issue.

If I could test the waters each day I would see that each day is a small step out of the rain Each step is on dryer ground. And dryer ground is a firmer foundation and where your foundation is strong you can build a sturdy structure that can withstand the next storm.